Have you ever felt undone? By which I mean have you felt worn out? Life looks incomplete, unfinished, and everything seems to be on the back burner while you are left waiting and wondering what will happen next.
Without going into a lot of detail, I have been feeling rather undone lately. Undone physically. Undone emotionally. Just plain undone. I’m facing unanswered questions, indefinite challenges, and unexplained changes that leave me at a loss for words. I know what you’re thinking: No words? This must be serious!
Through all of these challenges I am beginning to realize that there is both good and bad aspects of being undone.
While driving through Port au Prince, Haiti, I was struck by all that was unfinished and undone. Beyond the obvious earthquake damage, the buildings will often get to a certain level of completion and construction will stop. The buildings are deemed good enough. Good enough to give some shelter. Good enough to give some protection. Just good enough.
The crumbling structures remind me that we all have areas of our lives that are incomplete. We have given our lives to Jesus but we haven’t really let Him into every part of our hearts. These are places where we need to grow in love, in service, and in compassion; places in our hearts where we need healing, restoration, and redemption. We, like those abandoned buildings, give up doing the work simply because it’s hard and sometimes painful. We’ve blocked God from working in our hearts and have remained undone.
On the other hand, there is also a beauty found in being undone. I am inviting God to take all that is unfinished and incomplete and show me His power, a power that finishes all things well. I don’t have all the answers; I have pain, sorrow, questions, and grief that have brought me to my knees. But in the midst of all of that, I have witnessed grace: The grace of my family and the unrelenting grace of God. It’s okay to be undone as long as we are actively inviting God to work in our hearts.
A favorite saying of mine is, “Let’s wrap this up.” I don’t like lose ends. I like to check off my “to-do” list. And above all I do not like unresolved issues. I’m a fixer. What about you? Are you uncomfortable when things in life are left undone? As uncomfortable as it is to experience times where we face loose ends, the underlying foundation of faith can keep us firm. Our hope is not found in our physical health, our emotional well-being, or even in our relationships. Our hope lies in an unchanging God.
We now have this light shining in our hearts, but we ourselves are like fragile clay jars containing this great treasure. This makes it clear that our great power is from God, not from ourselves….That is why we never give up. Though our bodies are dying, our spirits are being renewed every day. For our present troubles are small and won’t last very long. Yet they produce for us a glory that vastly outweighs them and will last forever! (2 Corinthians 4:7, 16-17 NLT)
How will you begin to invite God to work in the undone places of your life?